Cybersitter stinks

Drat that stupid program. Since my work environment is very cautious about what is viewed online, we have lots and lots of restrictions. How many of you went to Sunday School as a child? Can you hear the song "Oh be careful little eyes what you see. Oh be careful little eyes what you see. for the Father up above, He is looking down with love. So be careful little eyes what you see." And so on and so forth.

It makes sense. I work in a place where it is not unusual to come in contact with sex offenders and others that have sexual dysfunction. I guess, as a women, that I feel reassured that they can't view anything that might... ummm.... well, that might. At least the obvious things.

Can you believe that I have never felt afraid? The entire time that I have worked at this place I have always felt comfortable and safe. I heard a statistic that one of the populations that we rarely look in the eye is homeless men. When I heard that I realized that it was truth for me. I started talking to them. Now some of them are odd birds that really want to push me. I have had one tell me that he loved me... that was awkward. I think I actually said, "ew". Not being mean, just letting him know that it wasn't an appropriate comment. I'm sure he'll never say that again. Thank you, Jesus.

But I have to tell you- I love these people. I don't understand why. I just do. I think it is because these people matter to God even when they don't matter to anyone else. The ones that have been through tragedy or are coming out of addiction simply break my heart. Some of the things that they have suffered were of their own making, but does that make them any less painful? I think, from my own experience, that causing your own pain makes things worse. Then you not only hurt, but have wounded your pride severely as well.

I may not always love my job. I may not always love my co-workers. However, I love the men and women that I work with. I can't even imagine living how some of them have had to live. Somehow they still have so much hope in them. I find them inspirational and amazing.

I'm such a sap.

Love to you all out there, Muffinhound